A word I have been saying a LOT lately is “grace”. This past semester in micro church we had a discussion on God’s grace. Simply put, it is the underserved, unmerited, favor of God. Now I knew what grace was. I mean come on it was my screensaver for a whole year, I watched Past. Mike Todd’s series “Grace like a Flood”, AND I was out here letting people know that God’s grace is sufficient for me. I was pretty much well versed in all things grace, right?
Well, no. I knew God’s grace was sufficient for me, but I was not receiving it and living in it. Whenever I felt defeat, it was difficult for me to grant myself grace. For example, if I did not achieve everything on my to-do list for the day I felt very defeated. If I chose to study instead of doing my devotion, I felt guilty. If I decided to watch TV instead of working out, I felt shameful.
I knew of Gods grace, but I was not allowing it to sink into my heart and change the way I thought about myself. But here’s the thing, “receiving God’s grace helps us see ourselves how HE sees us”.
So how does God see us? Let’s turn to scripture.
Ephesians 2: 10 NLT – “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” God calls me his masterpiece. He crafted me with skills and a purpose. Y’all thats powerful.
I had to allow Gods grace to shift my perspective from how I saw myself to how He see’s me, a masterpiece. The grace I was originally showing myself was incapable of providing me the redemption I needed. It was weak, earthy, and cheap.
But let me tell you about my God. HIS grace (not my own) is sufficient enough, for his power is made perfect in my weakness. All the true grace comes from him alone.
Throughout my entire renal block I was extremely burned out. It was the 3rd month of quarantine, renal was our most dense block, I had major I’m ready to be done with this year itis, and had to deal with the heavy emotional burden of seeing my people getting killed. It was a lot.
I turned to God in these moments where I felt like I was not giving it my all and constantly critiqued myself because of it. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
He helped me to see that it was okay to not give it my all in that season. I opened my heart to receive his grace, and extended that grace to myself. Funny enough, despite how much I felt like I did not apply myself throughout the renal block it was one of my highest exam performances in medical school.
With all that being said, my fellow readers grant yourself some grace. Thanks for making it this far. Wear your masks, stay safe, wishing you all the best.
As always, stay fabulous!